By RAQUEL RUTLEDGE
  Posted: Jan. 20, 2006
 
 Pfc. Katherine Jashinski dresses in uniform every day, but instead of 
 drilling for war with fellow soldiers, she spends her time on an Army post 
 in Georgia sweeping floors, scrubbing bathrooms and wondering whether she's 
 headed for jail.
 
 The 23-year-old soldier from Wautoma, a member of the Texas National Guard, 
 refuses to pick up a gun. She disobeyed orders to attend weapons training 
 and refused to deploy to Afghanistan with her unit, moves the military 
 considers criminal.
 
 Jashinski does not want to go to Afghanistan, Iraq or anywhere with the 
 Army. She says she disagrees with war of any sort, could never kill anyone, 
 and wants out of her six-year contract.
 
 "I thought about going to Canada, but I don't feel like I should have to 
 leave the country for something like this," Jashinski said. "I don't feel 
 like I should have to run from my government. I should face them instead."
 
 Jashinski is among a growing number of military members seeking to shed 
 their uniforms and cut loose from their commitments to fight on behalf of 
 the United States. They're seeking all sorts of outs including medical, 
 psychological, pregnancy and dependency discharges, and more and more like 
 Jashinski are applying for conscientious objector status.
 
 Some call them cowards, noting that nobody forced them to join. Others 
 champion their courage. As war rages in the Middle East, some troops who 
 volunteered for military service are sparking controversy by now espousing 
 peace amid a monolithic muscle machine dependent on soldiers following orders.
 Disagreement over the numbers
 
 Conscientious objectors constitute a minuscule number of the military's 1.4 
 million active-duty members, officials say.
 
 "The numbers have gone up marginally," said Army spokeswoman Lt. Col. 
 Pamela Hart. "But we have a lot more individuals on active duty."
 
 In all, 110 troops sought honorable discharges from the military through 
 conscientious objector applications in 2005, more than double the number in 
 2001, according to figures supplied by the service branches.
 
 Those defending objectors say the numbers are much higher.
 
 J.E. McNeil, executive director of the Center on Conscience & War, a 
 Washington D.C.-based non-profit that has supported the rights of 
 conscientious objectors since the 1940s, said her organization alone helped 
 nearly 100 troops file the complex paperwork in 2005.
 
 "That's ridiculous," McNeil said of the military's figures. "The numbers 
 don't jibe. I know of at least another 20 groups that do what I do, plus 
 people do it on their own or with the help of local ministers."
 
 McNeil said she hears from military members whose sergeants tear up their 
 paperwork and of many cases where the paperwork is repeatedly lost.
 
 Military officials acknowledge that some applications may have been lost, 
 but they said they had not heard of any such cases, or of any where 
 commanders destroyed an application.
 
 "We would take that very seriously," Hart said.
 
 The Central Committee for Conscientious Objectors, a non-profit 
 organization that counsels service members on ways to get out of the 
 military, says calls to its GI Rights Hotline have soared in recent years, 
 to 32,000 in 2005 from 12,000 in 2000. Two to three calls a month come from 
 Wisconsin National Guard members, hotline counselors said.
 Gaining objector status is difficult
 
 Before refusing orders to report to weapons training, Jashinski applied for 
 discharge as a conscientious objector. Her request was denied. For the 
 military to approve a conscientious objector application, service members 
 must show they hold a "firm, fixed and sincere objection to participation 
 in war in any form or the bearing of arms," for deeply held moral, 
 religious or ethical beliefs.
 
 It's a cumbersome task, considering that they willfully joined an 
 organization that has combat as one of its main missions.
 
 Unlike the draft days of the Vietnam War, troops today must prove they came 
 to their beliefs after joining the military. Their reasons may not stem 
 from philosophical or political beliefs. They cannot agree with certain 
 wars and object to others, under the military's definition. And to 
 demonstrate their sincerity, aside from a lengthy application, troops 
 seeking discharges as conscientious objectors must interview with a 
 chaplain, military investigator, and a psychiatrist.
 
 Petty Officer 2nd Class Mike Tonn from Fond du Lac served more than three 
 years in the Navy before requesting a conscientious objector discharge in 
 2004. Tonn was 18 when he joined in July of 2000 "as a way to get out of 
 Fond du Lac, Wisconsin," for the adventure and college money. It was 
 pre-9-11 and he never thought he'd go to war.
 
 Tonn said he realized he couldn't carry out the Navy's mission after the 
 captain of the USS Lake Champlain asked him to give a speech to sailors on 
 Martin Luther King Jr.'s birthday.
 
 "He (King) pleaded to American soldiers they should get out of the war in 
 Vietnam and it clicked with me," Tonn said. "I believed in what Martin 
 Luther King said. . . . I realized I'm not going to walk down the street 
 and kill someone."
 
 Tonn's request was approved about four months later and he received an 
 honorable discharge, but not before investigators tried to "trap" him with 
 aggressive and passion-provoking questions, he said.
 
 Tonn sought advice from an anti-war group before applying and interviewing 
 and was prepared to answer the tough questions, he said.
 
 Tonn said a few shipmates called him names but there was no serious 
 backlash from superiors or civilians once he returned to Wisconsin. He now 
 is an active member of Peace-Out and advises other troops on the 
 conscientious objector process. He is attending college in Portland, Ore.
 Objectors face disapproval back home
 
 Vietnam War veteran Frank Wilke said he fought for the rights of Tonn and 
 others to have freedoms like choosing to be a conscientious objector to 
 war, but he disapproves of people who choose such options.
 
 "I defend their right to do that," said Wilke, who's active in the 
 Wisconsin chapter of the Veterans of Foreign Wars. "At the same time, I 
 also have the right not to associate with people who do that.
 
 "When you do something like that, you're not only hurting your country, but 
 hurting your friends and family."
 
 Jashinski knows about that. Her decision to seek a conscientious objector 
 discharge has strained her relationship with her family, she said.
 
 "I really can't bring it up to my dad any longer," she said. "I feel like 
 we'll never agree. And some of the things he says make me pretty angry."
 
 Cindy Jashinski, Katherine's aunt, said she and her husband disagreed with 
 Katherine's decision.
 
 "We feel she committed to this. She enlisted. She should finish her time," 
 Cindy Jashinski said.
 
 Jashinski joined the Texas National Guard in 2002 after moving to Texas to 
 attend college. She was 19 and wanted to "experience as much as she could," 
 and to help pay for college. She said she was raised Christian and believed 
 killing was wrong but that it was sometimes necessary.
 
 "I was prepared to go to war," she said.
 
 But her feelings and beliefs began to change over the next two years as she 
 watched from her TV and computer the wars in Afghanistan and Iraq and as 
 she traveled the world and talked to citizens of other nations. She began 
 to read history and philosophy and began questioning the morality of all 
 wars, she said. By the time she received activation orders in April 2004 
 and was told she'd be going to Afghanistan, she said she had decided that 
 taking a human life was wrong, no matter what.
 
 "One of the most important things a person can do is honor their word and 
 keep their honor that way," she said. "But I realized I'm going to have to 
 live with it for the rest of my life and that it's more important to follow 
 my conscience than to fulfill a contract I signed when I was 19 and didn't 
 know any better."
 
 Jashinski filed a civil suit in federal court in San Antonio after her 
 conscientious objector application was denied. The outcome of that case is 
 pending. Meanwhile Jashinski has been demoted from specialist to private 
 first class. She is confined to a 2-acre compound on Fort Benning while she 
 awaits a court martial - similar to a civilian court trial - from the 
 military. She likely faces up to one year in prison if found guilty of 
 "missing movement" with her unit.